ahhhhh

so after long deep convo i am left completely unsettled and feeling as though i don't and can't know anything...

the things i do "know" all seem to be really depressing too.....the fact that I will die at some point....my time is limited here.....my experiences are limited....., also the fact that there is no way I will ever come close to the amount of self-knowledge and world-knowledge to be able to have the amount of understanding to know what is best....

where to go from here..??

You do have to create your own meaning in life and define for yourself what a successful life is.....the key to this may be to make sure it is broad and open enough that it can include new understandings and new knowledge, yet specific enough that it is meaningful and allows you to assertively act.....maybe this means you have to continually redefine a "successful life" as you gain more knowledge....this IS what it means.....

The first thing it seems is to understand what experiences have what kind of value to you. It seems like all that matters is accumulating moments and "experiences" that have value for you. An example would be if in defining a successful life I placed the highest value and singular value on sex than my actions should all lead toward the goal of maximizing the amount of sex experiences i have.

Can philosophical thinking have this value?? It is a pleasure but not a sensory one.

Things that carry value for me (not yet ordered)
- sex
- cuddling
- exerting effort
- understanding??


.....haven't I already talked about this....ya i kind of did